In laws are gone. I survived. Without copious amounts of alcohol. With a few tears shed in private to husband on a coffee run. The silver lining is that daughter got to spend some time with her grandparents. It isn't about me.
With the in laws in, I missed weigh in at WW on Tuesday. I weighed at home. I'm pretty sure I blogged about it. Anyhow, I decided by Wednesday that I would go weigh in today so that I wouldn't miss a week. Even though I have to go weigh again on Tuesday (3 days from now!!). I'm down 0.8. I am over the moon, because this means that I navigated the program properly while being out of my routine and under a lot of (self-imposed) stress. Yay me. Whatever. That isn't the most interesting part of my story today.
This might be long. Either get a coffee, or move on to the next blog ;-)
When I became a lifetime WW member, I was 24 and my goal weight was 125. I started at 139 (I think - it was 18 years ago, I don't still have my books - but for some reason, I have this # stuck in my head). Now, I'm never going to be 125 again. I don't want to be, because I couldn't stay there. Obviously - since I'm back at it.
I have been feeling good, and while I realise I'm not perfect, I think I'm pretty much where I want to be. I THOUGHT that I would change my goal weight (you are allowed to change it once) to 145. This is still a smidgen over 5 lbs from where I am now.
Since I went to WW without my friends (they went on Tuesday) I thought I would do all this "housekeeping" today. Well, the leader then explained to me that you have to pick a goal weight that is at least 5 lbs less than your ORIGINAL starting weight. Which would mean that my "new" goal weight would have to be 134, and not the 145 that I wanted. (I have also learned that I'm actually 1 inch and 3/8's taller than I originally thought. Which makes my ranges higher. Which makes my original goal weight even more ridiculous)
So, how did I handle this news? With grace and dignity? Nope. Not yours truly. I started to cry. Not a discrete, lady-like tear dripping ever so delicately from my one eye. I sobbed. And the leader (one that I don't like, by the by) says what's the matter, don't you think you can go that low? In between sobs, I explained that I was, for the first time in my life, happy with my body and that I really thought 5 more lbs was all that I "needed" to lose. In the end she did the paper work in a way that should enable me to get the goal weight of 145. If not, I may have to go to my doctor to get him to sign a form.
Why does this all matter? I will tell you. I want to work at WW and I have to be at my goal to do that. If my goal has to be 134, I won't be able to work there ever. I felt like a dream was being ripped away. I told the lady I want to have a goal that I can keep. I don't want to be loosing weight ever again. Eventually I stopped crying and was able to go weigh in. I'm so glad that I had a loss today, or the tears may have started all over again!
Anyhow - sorry to be such a time sucker.
Today's agenda includes.....weights at the Club (maybe some cardio - if an elliptical is free)...tutor for daughter and then.....INDIANA JONES BABY!!!!!!!! Where I will be having the children's popcorn & diet coke WITH BUTTER. I know, I know, but it's INDIANA and I will be counting. I don't go to the theatre often, just for the good action flicks that need a big screen, and quite frankly if I'm going to pay the billion $$ it costs to go to the movie these days anyway - I'm having the whole experience. The kid's popcorn packages are a great deal cause they are cheap and it is just enough popcorn that I feel like I've had a treat, but not so much that I feel like I've "blown" it and then end up binging.
I have to say - I've been reading every one's blogs this morning - but I had almost 60 entries to read, so if you notice a serious lack of commenting.....that is why. I hate missing a day (or a week) of blog reading.
OK bloggers - rock on - and have a healthy day!