post about "this time I'm going to...." before it finally takes????
I have much to say about a whole bunch of things.
First off. I have not been on plan. Since I started writing in my new 3 month weight watchers journal I have felt off. Of course, I didn't actually fall off plan until Saturday. But I have felt off plan since Thursday. It just never ceases to amaze me that this is such a mind game for me. So, Saturday I go over by 6 points. I should be able to manage this. Really, I can just create a defecit of 6 points before Wednesday and all will be ok. Yesterday, well, I haven't figured out yet how many I went over by. But I'm thinking...maybe 10. Now I'm over and there is no hope of making things right before the end of my WW week.
Of course, this leads to all kinds of negative feelings. What changed? I was really doing well, and now....
Last night I think I figured it out, as I lay there, completely unable to fall asleep because I couldn't stop thinking. Do you remember me mentioning that all of my challenges ended? I think that made me feel relatively inactive, which made me feel like a blob, which lead to overeating.
Luckily, today I started my weight training class, and then I did 20 minutes on the bike. I'm hoping that will have the desired effect on my head and this madness will be over.
The other thing that I think was affecting my weight loss (or gain, I'm sure in this case) was that I was so very close to my goal. For almost 16 years I've been someone that wanted to lose weight. I don't know how to be someone who is happy with them self. Nothing like a little self-sabotage to fix that!
In more positive and exciting news - I had my 10k race this weekend. What a fun event. In the end I walked it with my walking group. I'm very happy with my time. It only took me 15 minutes longer to walk the 10k than the last time I ran one!
It is such an exciting event because there are marathon run/walk, half marathon run/walk, 10k run/walk all going on at the same time. It is very exciting when the marathoner's pass you on the course. You can't help but clap them by!
After our walk we went for brunch. Mmmm, I didn't make the best choices. Stayed away from the veggies altogether. Dumb ass.
We cooked a roast beef last night on our new BBQ using the rotisserie. Yum. It turned out great. I served it with tossed salad and corn on the cob. Easy on points. Needed that after my brunch.
Tonight I'm going to cook one of those marinated pork tenderloins from Costco. Can't wait. More tossed salad and some basmati rice.
Yesterday my baby sister called (she is getting married in October) to tell us that they are having a baby at the end of December. My mom didn't react as well as I would have liked. I think because she was so shocked. In any case, I felt bad for sister, because that is the kind of news that you expect gushing about. Instead my sister said to my mom "we are expecting" and my mom said "expecting what?". Sheesh (and huge eye roll). I'm happy for her - they were getting married anyhow and that would have been the next step. And while she is my baby sister, she is hardly a baby. 27. Certainly old enough to be a mom.
OK. On my way to a healthy day. I've typed it, so it must be true. To all the bloggers who are doing well on program that I'm jealous of....and you know who you are....I'm jealous in the very best way. I'm happy that you've found your groove and I will be looking to imitate you today!!
Have a healthy day!