Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Panic

People participating in the SparkPeople Challenge already know this, but this week, after my splurge at Chili's I had a real moment of panic, weight loss head games, you name it.

I went to Chili's, ate what I had planned. Drank two drinks more than I had planned, but I had the points. Wrote it all down, counted it all up. Woke up the next day feeling seriously good about myself. I actually thought - this is why WW isn't a "diet". I CAN DO THIS FOREVER. Why did I ever have a problem staying on plan? Sounds great, right?

The NEXT day (the day after the day after the splurge) I hop on the scale. I decided a while ago that I am one of those people who needs to only weigh once per week. The ups and downs in the middle of the week play games with my mind and I can't stick to the program. Anyhow - of course, the scale shows me up. So immediately I'm mad, disappointed, and angry for my night out. Why did I think I could do that? I wallowed in it for a while and then shook my head. Went through my journal, which I have been filling out faithfully. I was on program. Had been very active, stuck to the points I was allowed. Crap. I am not falling into the trap again. So, I stayed with the program. Pushed those nasty thoughts away. And I'm down this week.

One thing that really helped me was that I sent out a message to the SparkPeople Challengers. JARLYNN made me feel much better about everything. It really helps sometimes to just even write stuff down. Once I saw it all right there in front of me, I was able to realize I was just playing the same old game with myself.

We had Salsa lessons again last night. I just about peed myself laughing we had so much fun. I was having trouble telling when husband was changing directions so he made up some eye movements that I should be following. Well, I was laughing so hard at that that I could hardly even see his eyes cause mine were tearing up. While he was stressed last week, this week he was right into it. Most fun activity points I've collected so far this week.

Have a healthy day bloggers!!

4 comments:

  1. Good Job for pushing through the disappointment of seeing that gain, and then seeing a loss, go you!

    I dont hop on the scale daily anymore for that exact reason!

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  2. It can be disheartening, but I'm so glad that you just kept trudging along. Consistency is key!

    Salsa class sounds freaking AWESOME! I haven't laughed like that in ages!

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  3. I totally know what you mean! I freak out about stuff still sometimes. There are some foods that I eat, and my mind just still keeps thinking "You can't eat that on a diet!" I wanna salsa!

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  4. Wow I so know that feeling. I can't tell you how many times I've said "why did I do that?" I'm glad you kept it up and set any guilt you had free though, because all feeling bad about it will do is weigh you down even more!

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